Assalamualaikum.....

Dear Bloggie ...

It's hard to be a teenager .. well because first it is the stage where we , the teenager got to matured our way of thinking ..  it is hard to leave my childish attitude and also it is hard to deal with people who already matured .. i dont really like people who matured too much .. it just that they think a lot different than a people like me .. i don't really like to be a teenager too because when i'm in this form i'm started to feel a lot of weird feelings ... well ...i don't like it when i;m resting pecefully on my fluffy bed and out of the blueee i feel saaaddd ... why ???? i myself don't know why .. i hate it ! i hate it very much ! and when i'm growing bigger and a little bit taller my desire to live faded slowly .. i'm also started to keep away myself from my family .. well,, i don;t really know what happen to myself.. most of the days i stay at home i keep myself away by staying in the room all the time...and that's made me barely feel my family's love ... and sometimes i do felt like my existence in the world , it is better if i am not exist .. my existence created trouble to other people .. my ideas always been rejected...why ?? am i not good enough ? who am i ?? am i nothing ? am i not really useful in this world ? am i .... not needed ? Ya Allah ...Please help me ! help me ! protect me from the syaitans. protect my mind ... lighten my heart Ya Allah .